Choosing to leave my career to raise my baby daughter was one of the toughest decisions I’ve ever made. I loved my job, but the amount of travel it entailed felt like too much of a sacrifice – I just couldn’t bear the thought of nights away from her each week. I was just getting to know this little person, and I wasn’t ready to leave that behind.
Next week I'm writing on the blog about my jaunty first year of motherhood. I didn't suffer with PND but it took me a long time to settle into this new thing, like well over a year. I felt lost. A little crazy and I longed for my old work routine. Now i'm used to my new normal but I think it's important to share these realistic expressions of Motherhood so we can stop forcing 'perfection' on ourselves and feel like human beings. With that in mind I totally nodded along to this post that Ruth from Real Life Mummy write on her blog which you can read here.
I know you've felt overwhelmed before, we all have, right? I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve not slept in about two years but this last week I have felt the weight of an old friend, a friend I dumped because we didn’t do much to compliment each other. As sad as separations can sometimes be, this one was very much needed. You see, they didn’t have my best interests at heart and I couldn’t handle the irrational, emotional mess they turned me into.
One of the most challenging things about having two very small children is my inability to split myself into two - it's physically impossible to do things for both boys at the same time. I've given up trying. When two children scream at the same time - which one do you go to first?! I don't think there is a right or wrong answer to that one.